Goodbye

The thought of you girls leaving simply spells one word-hurt.

Day of Events

DELUSION.

"he's done it once, he's done it twice, and he is gonna do it to you again. You better learn how to swallow his nonsense."- she's so awesome, (L) you gal(:

Pain.

Punched the door.

"That felt good."

Blame.

"Maybe he just hates you."

"Racist?"

Though I did not expect this from you but...tough love?

Thinking of You.

Katy Perry-my new blog song.

Love the vid. Go watch it.

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Psyching*

Oh dear Lord, you just abandoned me.

Shoes

fucking orgasmic shoes.

Jared & Hilary

This is jared & hilary & we are hacking iris's blog while she went out for a stick break & watch E! Entertainment--->GIRLS.

anyway...iris, you're so sad and quiet nowadays. why sial. must be your sch man. it gives me a bad vibe-fuck jcs..hahahahhahahahahhahahahaha.we know how u feel girl, we've been there. so don't be so emo la.and wheres carene? buy food buy so long one.okok. you are gng to kill us when u see this.but u must know tat we love you hxc ttm. so dont emo k? we'll bring u shopping someday. we love u kid.

and...u din lose ur phone.

its with us:DDDD 

Not Easy

Started out the day with an anger in me. Damn brother din turn off the stove last night & left the fire on till this morning-little fucker, he can just kill himself for all I care, but leave me & my mom outta it.

Bitch face.

So, school was rather thrashy today too. Homework is piling up like nobody's business-think mountains.

& then there was training. I expected it...all of it. Though I was telling myself that it won't happen, not today, not in the future---how foolish. How can I not pay for the things that I've caused? Foolish, foolish, foolish-no kha, I'm not being harsh on myself. This is the first time I've shed flowing tears in IJC. No, really, it was major-ly my fault--before you decide to say its not, think first-just think. Had I been a selfless being, that game would not have had a lousy start to it, developing into a lousy end.

forget about it?
start anew?
-my dear, its NOT that easy-especially if you know that you were the main cause for the loss & everyone else is secretly voodoo-ing you--somewhere down the pits of their hearts, some space in that beating heart, there's the hate & blame. I know it, I can feel it. The cold, harsh, dagger stares outside the pitch...don't bring it in? It's hard. It really is.

Nonetheless, I will overlook the unhappiness for as far as I can. Just keep smiling--it will auto switch your mood--I swear it will, otherwise, I will make it auto switch. I'm psyching myself up, no matter what.
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God, I'm crying out loud.
You there?

as if 3 sticks weren't enough,
I had to finish 1 packet,
get wasted & then cover up the loop holes.
outta this life,
get me outta this life.

All The Lonely Hearts.

The loneliness is kicking in again. Never thought that I would feel like this over. Today and yesterday spelled "horrible". Really, got scolded by coach|lost the match to rjc|

can't sleep at night.

can't cry it out.

can't scream in peace.

Today, had no idea why the hole in my heart isn't closing in. I felt right yet so empty-just so out of place. I hate you. But wait, think oxymoron-I love you even more. I was okay, trust me, I was...yet I was not okay. Someone tell me why I am feeling like that.

I carried a smile, I blocked the tear, I psyched myself--I SUCCEEDED but why is it so easy to see through all of that?

-got ticked by physics tutor for being untidy & writing on my worksheet.

why can't I study the way that I like? If writing in my worksheet makes me understand so much better(direct reference, I would call it), why won't you let me?

So tired...exhausted...lethargic...of figuring you out.

,I will never ever hurt you.

,,I will always protect you.

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God, where are you these days?

I need sleep,

I need a long break,

a withdrawal from reality.

LOOKING

Looking for these babies.

HAHA, SYANNI FOR YOU(:

so, Syanni calls me molerat all the time for I-don-t-know-what-reason. LOL. & she calls stephanie curly fries bcos of her hair. So I decided to call her armpit for-i-dont-know-wad-reason-too and steph calls her breast(:

I LOVE YOU SMELLY BREAST!

THIS IS SO HILARIOUS. HAHAHAHHAHA.

Hockey Shopping

Today, went out with K, D, Celestine, Kirin, Amalina, Wan Teng, Jeslyn, Adib & Hakim(:

We headed to Peninsula to get our hockey sticks and other whatnot.

lunched at macs.

(L)

&yea, me, as usual!(:

K! with gryphon[A's stick(:]

This is C!
Name: Celestine Kok.
she (L) touch rug & me.
& I (L) her burberry bag.
but she (L) my victoria secret(:

Meet D!
Name: Darlene John Johnny
She (L) touch rug too!
& of course, me, too, DOOH.
I (L) her to hxc ttm!

K & C

Meet Adib, our cikgu.
kiddingz.
he (H) men.

So, yea, thats about the pics from K's lJ(:

Anw, bought my Dita stick, grays shin pad, lotto socks & imma happy kid!*jumps in the air and throws confetti all around*

I miss LS, K, C, D, & E.):

kkz, gtg off to mug!

POST IT: 1) GP essay
2) Econs essay
3) Math

Dates: 20th april- 1st match against RJC.

p/s: I'm not the only one who hates u, you're pissing half the class off too.
p/p/s: You'll never be like me. Don't try too hard.
p/p/p/s: I'd never be this mean if you'd used a lil bit more brains.

LOVE

I just found this picture in K's lj.(:




love(:

Topshop

OMG, I WISH SINGAPORE HAD TOPSHOPS LIKE THAT D: D: D:



Probably getting Mom to plan a NYC trip after my 2nd year in JC.

"i think it's a great looking store" TOO, and yes, "I LOVE TOPSHOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

PISSED.

verdict: jared & jordus are the meanest things in town. but i still love them(:

Anyway, I'm super pissed now. I just don't believe that people like you can just pass off something that ain't yours as yours. You ain't creative enough? Seriously, get a freaking life.

Okay, this is what happened. I was blogging today and as usual, checking out the lives of other people-by reading their blogs. But guess what-when I stumbled upon this person's blog, I found out that she has been copying the way I blog and the structure of my blog. Then I was fucking pissed. Authentic bloggers out there, you guys should know how is it like to develop a blogging style of your own that perpetually reads: YOU. But imagine if someone, whom you already don't really like, copies your way of blogging. How does that feel? Feel like punching that person rite? Im so effing pissed can!

You are so goddamn childish you know that? Can't you, for once, be a tad more real? Oh wait, do you even know what real really is? GOSH. I'm officially disgusted.

you should know who you are.
feeling guilty? well, then its YOU.

PHEW. that made me feel a lil bit better.


Anyway, I'll be setting up a second blog!:D only for fash-fever. & its not a copy-pls lah, im not as cheap and shameless as her-so you'll get to see alot of topshops, f21s, victoria's secret, dolce & gabanna, miss selfridge, dorothy perkins, charlotte russe, supre, ASOS, gojane, wetseal, old navy, delias and many many more(:

stay tuned!

Barbie

barbie fashion show.

HOT.

Chomp Chomp

hey peeps! haha. im in a rather light-hearted-annoyed-by-mom-wanting-to-run mood now(:

okay, anw, ate these today:

1. bee hoon
2. 1 egg tart
3. ice shavings[mango]
4. oreo crush

i feel so guilty):

but heck, im gna run later, hopefully. Then went shopping with mom! love her hxc ttm!

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anw, i just wanna express how much I love mom & dad. im just so proud of them-that they have both been featured in the local newspapers before for their great achievements with regards to their occupation. All the hardwork that they have put in for the sake of us, kids. We...well, at the very least, I, can see that its been paid off. Mom and dad's great effort and creativity is just so rare and absolute. Im really proud of them.

Of course they don't just get featured for their creativity in the way they work, they also do get recognition by returning favours to the great society-this is what I really am proud of-them giving back. The papers don't lie, the pictures won't deny, it really is what they have been working so hard for.& im so proud to be their daughter.

Though I know for myself that I will not continue either of their businesses, I'm still ultimately proud of them.

MOMMY & DADDY, I LOVE YOU!
*my parent's names, company and newspaper publishing house will not be revealed.

Random

For some reason, random and I happen to click oh-so-very well. So, here are some random pics(:

K's teeth-gum-like-shoes.see, the pink part is the gums and the white part is the teeth(:

my econs lecture notes with some random pics.

recently, my curriculum is very filled with them-hockey balls!:D

this is K, & you have no idea how much of a fren she is.

i(L)you, bitch.;D

*A

I told see-toh-phen-ni to write me a love letter.

-she gave me this.

RANDOM SNAPSHOTS TO PROVE MY UNDENYING FETISH FOR MYSELF

I'm self obsessed when I want to be.

damn the armpit fats!):

tts about it! today, I incurred alot of injuries, including one in my rib. OUCH pls. kk, i got the hypernova mark too:D

now, pray tt God can help me in econs test tmr!:D