crawling

This week has crippled me pretty badly. I can say that it is one of my best and worse weeks. & you made them both good and bad. Throughout it all, you were all by my side, the smiles on my face never ceased to fade away. Thrilled as I was to see that maybe things were getting subtly better. I wiped away all that has happened and started afresh. Why did I? I lost faith in everything else. It all pulled me down. Then the week came, things were great, I did not show no nothing, I did not need sympathy--I never needed it. I thought that it was a two-sided thing, for once in my life. Then later in the week, things took a great turn. I shouldn't have enquired about anything, I shouldn't have asked for an explanation. The lies make all things beautiful. Its the truth that kills one's soul. I wished I hadn't known. When it came, it came as a double whammy. You crippled me pretty badly, you really did. Now, I'm barely crawling. But its not your fault, you didn't know anyway--it was all along a one-sided affair.

slash my throat, maybe things will get a lil' better.,